Creative Frustrations

Not having the internet at home has put a serious damper on my rping time - that is, it's done to practically zero. The only rping I've been able to do is what my friend and I can do over the phone. As a result, I've had dozens of ideas swimming around in my head, and no real way to get them out in the open. Sure, I could write them down, but that's no fun for me. I like feedback, interaction, people telling me what they think or reacting to it as I'm writing it. That's why roleplaying has been such a serious part of my writing and to Rhia's life. Rhia wouldn't exist - none of this story would exist - without roleplaying. Rhia was 'conceived' and 'grew up' in the roleplaying world. She first made her true appearance on a message board eight years ago, when I was ten, and it was there her attitude, Kalvin, Tobias, and her backstory arose. It was there I discovered she was half Drow, half Wood, that Kalvin had been a part of her, that she'd been exiled from her home - from a family that sorely missed her - and that she'd had such a relationship with Tobias and destroyed it so that her life could never be 'normal'. It was there she met a shy, humble human named Famij, and his 'sister', Wye. It was on that message board she first fell in love, first got married, first fought, first spilled blood, and first cried. And it was from there that I gained confidence in the chatroom rping world and ventured out into the AOL chats. And it was in these chats that Rhia matured from the snotty brat she (I) started out as, and became the desired, untameable woman she is today. One look in your direction and you find yourself drawn to that dark corner she sits slouched behind a table in, tavern smoke making her even harder to discern from the shadows. Her magick, her beauty, and her dangerous, crimson eyes pull in any man, young, old, strong or weak of body, mind, or soul. In fact, it's come to be that she causes at least eighty men to fall in love with her and start a family with her. Of course, few of them survived or were able to remain with her for long. And that's only those with whom she had children. You and I can only guess as to how many men really did fall in love with her. What I hope is that millions all over our world fall in love with her character, on paper and, soon I hope, on screen. It is true that nearly every rp I've had with Rhia will somehow effect the storyline. Either the character I encountered will show up in any variety of roles, or a particular situation will arise, or the entire storyline of the rp itself. Rhia's first close-encounter with a human will come up in probably the second book - thus the underlying theme of a criticism of human civilization will finally become 'clear'. Rhia's love of a turned-vampire and how she saved him, and how her blood is now lethal to all born-vampires, and a cure to all turned. And, who could forget (that have ever listened to any of the storyline), Rhia's travels with two wolves, Sam - the smart-mouthed reject, and Kit - the high-class-unwillingly-turned-lone wolf. That was actually one of Rhia's first as well, and was quite exciting. I'm only sad I cannot get back in touch with the girl who played Sam and a variety of other characters that showed up in the storyline, so that we could continue and somehow give it an end. I suppose that shall be left up to me. That brings up an important point, however. Seeing as so much of my storyline evolved in these various rps, and many of the characters that I'll be including in some way or another are not originally my own - though will probably evolve to fit my needs - I will be doing my damnedest to get in touch with these people and get their permission to use their characters and our storylines. Those that I cannot get in touch with - probably a great many of them - and that I have some sort of name or screenname with which to refer to them by, I will give them credit in an Acknowledgements or Preface section. ::gazes up at everything typed up already:: Well..guess I've done quite a bit of ranting. I had intended on doing a bit of a writing sample of the dialogue for the first book, but I guess that'll have to wait until tomorrow, or whenever I happen to post next. Until then - not that there's anyone out there reading this yet, or at least no one that cares enough to comment - keep me in mind.